I was so exhausted after Meaghan’s class yesterday but I did manage to come home and make dinner for myself. I think it's great for me to have something that tires me out like that since my days aren't super active at the moment. I slept really well!  

I'm at the peak of a cold now so I'm actually feeling pretty crummy but, hopefully, I'm on the mend. All I could think about in class the other day was “Why didn't I bring a towel?” I could not believe how much I sweat! I definitely needed that but my head was pounding because of my cold so I was thinking about that a lot too.   

I think, as I get stronger and learn the poses, I will get to a place where I'm out of my head more. But at least my thoughts weren't spinning out about the rest of life. All I could think about was being in that moment and how hard and sweaty and frustrating it was for me.  


I did have one moment in class when I started thinking about work. We were doing some sort of twist and I looked out the window and saw a huge billboard for an ABC show.  But then, when we turned to the other side, it went away!  

I wanted to walk out of there at one point. I was thinking, “This has to be almost over!” But it felt so good towards the end of class when we started to cool down. I was  
so proud I had made it through it when I drove home.

One thing that I've changed this week that seems to be a big help is I stopped drinking coffee. I have been a coffee drinker for a really long time but I never thought I drank all that much.  Two cups in the morning seemed moderate.  When I came down with this cold I really wanted tea, not coffee, so I thought, “This is as good a time as any to try.” Now I've been having tea every morning instead of coffee.  

I’ve felt a lot better as far as my anxiety goes.  My breathing doesn't feel as troublesome and I'm not worrying about it like I used to. My thoughts just feel like they are at a more normal pace.  And my heart doesn’t pound ever anymore.  It's really kind of weird. I do have a screaming headache that I've had since yesterday but that may be from my sinus problems. I'm not sure. And I'm still getting a little caffeine from tea but it doesn't seem to have the same effect as coffee did.

I’m going to see the musical Jersey Boys today at two so I can’t make Meaghan’s four o’clock class. I have to look at the schedule to see if there’s a class tomorrow or maybe Saturday. I want to get in another class this week…

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